believe

another way another reason. just look infront my eyes the big shit panorama :: the fuck of reality!

i can said that cause everythin show it with supprise. no one knowing it.

with big trust. everythin u hope can come true ya maybe not 100% but just goin reach 100% hahah i think
but idrk * i mean i dont really know*

sometimes we wonder have good reality for example like have a good realtion, family, life, money, and etc but its imposible to know the truth we feel it. why i can said that, cause god give the temptation accordin to our ability. even thought we down but i trust to HIM he can give me a good life in after life. just only my faith, and not another mean.and keep tryin to be a strong woman.

sometimes people just judge from cover. but we must be patiently one, why? ive 1 analogy to make you think with your big brain. if people try to embarrass you, its mean their jealous wih yours uve like ur talent or advantage like god give to you and us. their jealous and do like that cause their can did like what u did.

the law of karma is very applicable

what we did in the past can come true in ur future. still not blv it? or try found karma storry around you and bassed on true storry. can u imagine? can u feel it if the bad karma can happend to you?

lets reflect and think with your lovely soul. dont forget to pray accordance with ur respective confidence. with expectations in your reflection will affect possitive impact for your soul.

U dont know how it feel

I dont know! U blind? Or u just wanna play me? Understand me im not ur toys.. Im not ur punchin bag! When if u need me u contack me.. Its sound make me guilty, anger and oh gosh! Its like megaquake in my soul. Wanna hit slap ur face until everythin is done. But why im still can try to trust u even though i know u lie to me. Why i still must try to think and faith to you.. Why!!! I hate my self! Ur great! Ur great make someone can be moved and hard to move on! Ure really a great one! God give me reasone and answer :'(

Just give me a reason like P!nk said

I remember when i heard that song. Honestly i ever heard on the tv or another places i ever go but im lazy to search this song but usually if i heard good song i allways try to search on the google.. Until i meet him again.ok so long time not meet him. His diffrent, his really diet. In the past first time we meet his so more chuby fat i can explain.but his cute one and i like it, and we get more closer,chat , talk but i believe he had a girlfriend even though he didnt make i know his stat. And the position im get relation with anotha but he know to. Ok..back to the topic.  I remember he look me i look him and i hold his arms so damn tightly. I tell story anythin about me and him to, until he ask me "you dont know this song?" he search on his blackberry and voila! What i heard that! Just give me a reason a new best single from P!NK. I didnt know until know. Why this song can happend to me now? Its like a truth about love like p!nk said and its true huaaaa.. So sad me . But honestly the song like a magic. Maybe first time i meet him again maybe i must dont heard that song to make didnt came true huaha. Ok its my bad story.. So melancholy....

Chasing pavement

Sometimes its like chasing pavement. I miss guy ever make my world colourful and no one can make best ever like him.. Ok 3 month left. Im so missin. Shud i give up? Or shud i just in chasing pavement? Its a question. But ill try. Try to more calm and be pantiently one to make him see im diffrent and im not the other

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sometimes i want to be another

human born in a perfectnes like god made it but in the perfectness we just ordinary human right. offcoursely we have shortage in ourselves. even thought we believe we have own talent god given us. ya and i reiterate back again " I, YOU, WE AND US JUST ORDINARY HUMAN "and sometimes we can get diffrent act, do or anything like in real life we are experiencing now. In our shortcomings, when we're lookin' at those better than ourselves we like feel jealous, guilty and liltle bit get inspiring and ask to ourselves 

" when i cud be like him ", " when i cud be like her " " owgh damn it! can i do that like they? " 

and many more  question and its a truth on my life i dont know how bout you .. hemm i think maybe happen to you... :) and make ourselves motivated to be like them. but to be who they are it isnt possible. not to be like them or another. just take the positive think make their more better and maybe we can do like they do with our own way :). 

The power of God its like a magic

You dont know? God have a big powers like a magic? Maybe half of people in around me ,you and us just believe when theirs remember if god have big powers. I want to share a litle wish i think god make my wish come true.
Its about  2 years ago. I just broken harted with someone ever give me fake love and hope. Until i got a new friends a nice good couple make me jealous. And now his like my brotha and my sister. But i more than closed to my a new sister. Call her unda. Its a lovely name for their relation with my new brotha.shes walk and run this relation its walked 3,5 years until now. Ok #salute! | back to the topic| liltle bit about unda, shes have more talent. Shes sixsence and i can believe that. Shes know my someone make im broken hearted but what shes talk always true..or maybe its cause shes can look a new future or cause god give me to know her and from her god save me? I dont really know. But 3 month im leave from black hole and he leaves me to , i pray to god and focus with what i do. God make my dream,wish,came true. I pray every night, or maybe if im not pray i try to get empty mind to get closer to god and share what i feel.and finnaly it works. I got a new someone make my life more better *my ex boyfriend* same religion, lilbit same hobby, and his a moluca. And its like my b'day present from god, 3 days after im b'day 17 nov. So can blv it!  And what i pray its true.
Even though im with him just 6 month in relationship, but until now im still get contack with him ya sometimes i miss him but i dont want hv a fight or somethin bad thought i break up with him.
Ya maybe its a litle story about powers of god! Its like a magic right?! :)

God have a reason

I bealive god have a reason. Maybe good, maybe bad. Why i said that... Its cause god have a plans in my life, ur life, and us to get close and just afraid and belive in god. Ya even though im not a good daughter but i trust him and believe his always with me when im alone, hes always with me when he give me punishment thought his angry to me but, his dont mean that, his give the punishment, try to make realize and think what we do it before until we get bad luck day but from far away his look you, bleesed you and never leave you, cause hes loves me,you, and us. Not just my god.. Ofcoursely the other god in other religion do this for you .

You inspring me really!

Why i said you inspring me? Ok. And thats way this to fucking early morning. Ok now its 2.43 am in west indonesia ofcourselly im in jakarta. Ok, back to the topic i want to tell you readers.
And today i just open my instagram *if you mind maybe you just follow me :: indiraapsaridewi and i gv folback (damn! I promote my self hahaha)*
I see a person, the woman ispiring me *unpublished person* im so proud with her life,her family, and shes built it from hardest part until shes get good pamor in dance crew community and famous in indonesia ofcourselly for hip hop dance crew, theirs know this crew, theirs know this woman. Shes so inspring me cause, theirs hv strong in her life, shes struggle, and shes a good fighter, shes a good mom, good wife, and im so jealous, ya i dont really-really know about this her fam.but shes always show a good moment and thing and some sweet romantic in shes photos on instagram. Feel like in sweet harmony. And sometimes i pray to god can be her... Be a Multitalented, get husband have a same hobby, same work, same job, same do, same think, and make you happy and comffortable. Its a dream girl just rarely not come true. But i blv. If i trust to god, god can make my dream come true and do good work and maybe hes can give moree good present in out of we think it to dream and its zackly! More awsome and beautiful

hey! im indira apsari dewi

Just call me indira. Ya its a common, but its up 2 u want to call me what. Until we still hv good relation and im commfort ya its ok..
I make this blog, its cause someone inspiring me, the great person, the great dadys, moms and other people in around me ... Ya maybe its a liltle greetin' from me. Warm love, indira :*