like a trash

sometimes hard to be my self. its like a trash, sometimes someone to push me down if they didnt like with me or put me in to the sky cause comfy with me. so manny variation of expres feeling. but the hardness when people or someone hate me cause unimportant thing. if im wrong are you a true one? but i remember someone told me wrote on my path photo comment. "well usualy im..but when im wrong.. see rule #1" -camera owner (fake a.k.a)- hes my inspiration to :) but when im down im remeber when HILL SONG group by *forget that name* the title of song is GOD RAN so make me wanna tears if want to watch it again. god told me on bible if you down u r not alone u still hv father can hold u hug you. god why? this is way before you save all human?

believe

another way another reason. just look infront my eyes the big shit panorama :: the fuck of reality!

i can said that cause everythin show it with supprise. no one knowing it.

with big trust. everythin u hope can come true ya maybe not 100% but just goin reach 100% hahah i think
but idrk * i mean i dont really know*

sometimes we wonder have good reality for example like have a good realtion, family, life, money, and etc but its imposible to know the truth we feel it. why i can said that, cause god give the temptation accordin to our ability. even thought we down but i trust to HIM he can give me a good life in after life. just only my faith, and not another mean.and keep tryin to be a strong woman.

sometimes people just judge from cover. but we must be patiently one, why? ive 1 analogy to make you think with your big brain. if people try to embarrass you, its mean their jealous wih yours uve like ur talent or advantage like god give to you and us. their jealous and do like that cause their can did like what u did.

the law of karma is very applicable

what we did in the past can come true in ur future. still not blv it? or try found karma storry around you and bassed on true storry. can u imagine? can u feel it if the bad karma can happend to you?

lets reflect and think with your lovely soul. dont forget to pray accordance with ur respective confidence. with expectations in your reflection will affect possitive impact for your soul.

U dont know how it feel

I dont know! U blind? Or u just wanna play me? Understand me im not ur toys.. Im not ur punchin bag! When if u need me u contack me.. Its sound make me guilty, anger and oh gosh! Its like megaquake in my soul. Wanna hit slap ur face until everythin is done. But why im still can try to trust u even though i know u lie to me. Why i still must try to think and faith to you.. Why!!! I hate my self! Ur great! Ur great make someone can be moved and hard to move on! Ure really a great one! God give me reasone and answer :'(

Just give me a reason like P!nk said

I remember when i heard that song. Honestly i ever heard on the tv or another places i ever go but im lazy to search this song but usually if i heard good song i allways try to search on the google.. Until i meet him again.ok so long time not meet him. His diffrent, his really diet. In the past first time we meet his so more chuby fat i can explain.but his cute one and i like it, and we get more closer,chat , talk but i believe he had a girlfriend even though he didnt make i know his stat. And the position im get relation with anotha but he know to. Ok..back to the topic.  I remember he look me i look him and i hold his arms so damn tightly. I tell story anythin about me and him to, until he ask me "you dont know this song?" he search on his blackberry and voila! What i heard that! Just give me a reason a new best single from P!NK. I didnt know until know. Why this song can happend to me now? Its like a truth about love like p!nk said and its true huaaaa.. So sad me . But honestly the song like a magic. Maybe first time i meet him again maybe i must dont heard that song to make didnt came true huaha. Ok its my bad story.. So melancholy....

Chasing pavement

Sometimes its like chasing pavement. I miss guy ever make my world colourful and no one can make best ever like him.. Ok 3 month left. Im so missin. Shud i give up? Or shud i just in chasing pavement? Its a question. But ill try. Try to more calm and be pantiently one to make him see im diffrent and im not the other

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sometimes i want to be another

human born in a perfectnes like god made it but in the perfectness we just ordinary human right. offcoursely we have shortage in ourselves. even thought we believe we have own talent god given us. ya and i reiterate back again " I, YOU, WE AND US JUST ORDINARY HUMAN "and sometimes we can get diffrent act, do or anything like in real life we are experiencing now. In our shortcomings, when we're lookin' at those better than ourselves we like feel jealous, guilty and liltle bit get inspiring and ask to ourselves 

" when i cud be like him ", " when i cud be like her " " owgh damn it! can i do that like they? " 

and many more  question and its a truth on my life i dont know how bout you .. hemm i think maybe happen to you... :) and make ourselves motivated to be like them. but to be who they are it isnt possible. not to be like them or another. just take the positive think make their more better and maybe we can do like they do with our own way :).